I am so sorry to have left you all hanging-- we're here, and we're fine.
So much has happened since my last post, I don't quite know where to start.
I guess an explanation for the silence might be the best place.
Now, I could just say I haven't posted because we've been busy -- DANG busy -- with multiple trips out of town, beautiful weather, preparations for school...
But that's not the only thing that's kept me away.
Bottom line, I just couldn't bring myself to write.
And for a a while now, I didn't know why.
Until this morning -- after walking Evan to school (yes, you read that right-- Evan. To school.) -- I started thinking about the blog, and the word "fear" came to mind.
Because I haven't kept Joseph's blood sugars remotely stable all summer.
Because, as a result, his A1c jumped back up-- this time to its highest since diagnosis.
And finally, because I haven't had the strength to talk about it here.
It's ironic, really.
For despite a somewhat rocky start, this was probably the best summer we've had since Joseph's diagnosis: countless baseball games; trips to see family, friends; an amazing week of diabetes camp for Joseph, "Gramma" camp for Evan, and "Parent" camp for me and Ryan.
And through it all, Joseph grew. A lot.
(Criminy, he's almost as tall as me!)
But the fear, that all this fun was coming at a cost, also grew.
Don't get me wrong-- we didn't ignore the diabetes. No. We tried to get some semblance of control.
But it was impossible.
You see, it wasn't that we weren't logging, it was that so much changed so fast -- virtually day-to-day -- that we couldn't make sense of the data.
Well, summer's over.
Time to get back to work.
(And hopefully, back to the blog as well.)
Monday, September 08, 2008